Told You So

I want to buy the club.

Sun, 18 Oct 2009 15:18:04 GMT

I'm talking about ComedyWorx. I approached Richard (the owner) about it a few weeks ago and he said "sure, you got twenty bucks? It's yours" and you know what I should have called his bluff because the nest weekend he said he'd sell it for half a mil. Lame.

I'm serious, though. I wouldn't care if it meant that I couldn't perform there (I don't think it would mean that). I'd have to shut it down for at least a month, apply for a real liquor license, get the kitchen up and working, remodel/rebuild the stage, fix the vents, all that, but I know I would have the help and support of (some of) the players to do this.

This club has essentially saved my life, and I feel the need to return the favor. I want to make it what it should be. It's no offense to Richard; I just feel like it could be so much more. A REAL comedy club. I'd keep the formats, of course, have late night go on till 2 (since we'd have a full bar and all drinks must be off the floor by 2:30, that gives enough time for mingling. I would pay people to work, since there would be cooking and such involved (nothing crazy, but maybe a build up of what we already have (like super awesome nachos and popcorn chicken wings and stuff like that).

I know some people would be pissed off, but I think in the end it would have a very positive response. We would advertise! Maybe be open the occasional week night. Amateur stand up? Well publicized amateur stand up!

Anyhow, I just need some start up. I thought about asking Richard to show me the ropes and let me see if I could run it as it is right now, but I don't really think he'd go for that. But maybe he will...wouldn't hurt to ask?

Oooh swedish rap, you can do no wrong!

Mon, 03 Aug 2009 15:56:15 GMT

I'm loving Movits. Thank you, Stephen Colbert.

Things are going better. It's a new month, I'm closer to having all my stuff back in one place and having a real place to call home...for the next few years at least, here's hoping, potentially...who knows.

Things at CW are going great. Working on my sister's wedding right now (she's engaged!) so that's taking up a good chunk of time, as well as job searching.

Comic-Con was awesome and I wrote all about it on my facebook so I'm going to seriously less that half ass it here. It was awesome. The end.

Anyhow, that's that for now.

BLERGH.

Fri, 19 Jun 2009 16:13:45 GMT

Maybe I'm making too much of this but I just need to get it all out real quick.

So in June 2006, one of my best friend's kills himself, right. January of 2007, my best friend (at the time)'s husband dies of leukemia. August 2007 my great aunt dies after vascular complications.

I pull a Holden Caulfied and decide it's not worth getting to know new people because they're all going to die anyhow, consider myself cursed and find myself in the mindset of "if you're my friend, your risk of death may have just gone up."

It takes most of 2008 to get out of that mindset.

2009 occurs and I find myself with about fifty new friends.

Yesterday I find out one's in the hospital, he body is attacking his platelets and such and he's wicked sick.

I once again have the overwhelming urge to push everyone away because that's really just how I operate, but am working very hard to not do that because last time I did that, I was very aware of my loneliness and I just wanted someone around but felt it was too risky.

I know I don't control what happens to people, but if there's no one around, there's no way to know if they're ok or not, ergo, I don't feel helpless and like I can't assist.

Anyhow. That's all I've got to say. I feel a bit betterish but not really. Off to meet Morgan for lunch.

Wow.

Sat, 09 May 2009 04:54:17 GMT

Turns out all my old friends wish I was dead.

Don't worry guys. I'm working on it.

Quick notes

Fri, 08 May 2009 15:36:33 GMT

*Potentially going into long form @ CW. I have been offered potential sponsorship by one of the last people I thought would ever say "you're really funny and would be an asset to any long form team".

*Potentially dropping out of school again, since I really need a full time job. See, this time I'd be doing it with good reason. I've worked very hard, but alas. I know I can go back one day. The doctor dream is being put on hold for now I guess. It's difficult to come to terms with, after all the hard work I've put into everything, but you know, it just has to be done at the moment.

*I wish I still had the minivan because I could at least set that into a make shift apartment (still looking for somewhere to live, need to move stat, FML).

*I wish people would stop being a source of constant disappointment.

Sun, 03 May 2009 15:57:07 GMT

I feel like absolute shit. And it's finals week.

Kind of want to just drive my car into a phone pole at a high rate of speed, but that would mess up the car.

This, too, shall pass.

Update on stuff?

Wed, 11 Mar 2009 16:44:48 GMT

I've been very blergh lately, even with my new shipment of Threadless shirts that came last week. I thought they would cheer me up. And they did, though briefly.

Going back to school after being off for a week with Spring Break has been difficult. I've given up on spanish this week, and Math's a close second for classes I'm not too interested in caring about but I'm still doing alright.

comedy's been weird, class tonight and tomorrow so we'll see how that goes. Morgan, my partner in crime, is sick and will be missing tonight's class. This makes me sad, as now I'll be the only girl in class. Probably.

Wow, I just saw someone who's paler than I. Thank you.

Anyhow, got to get to Math now. Things is boring, yo. Fellowship app goes out Friday. I hope I get it, I really do. I'm just really "eh" about everything at the moment. I tired of stuff. I need new things to happen please.

I can't do anything right

Sun, 08 Mar 2009 07:32:23 GMT

At least Aimee Mann understands how I feel at the mo'.

I'm tired of this passive-aggressive shit I'm getting every time I walk through the fucking door.

Once upon a time is how it always goes
But Ill make it brief
What was started out with such excitement
Now Id gladly end end with relief
In what now has become a familiar motif:

That nothing is good enough
For people like you
Who have to have someone take the fall
And something to sabotage--
Determined to lose it all

Critics at their worst could never criticize
The way that you do
No, theres no one else, I find,
To undermine or dash a hope
Quite like you
And you do it so casually, too

Cause nothing is good enough
For people like you
Who have to have someone take the fall
And something to sabotage--
Determined to lose it all

Ladies and gentlemen--
Heres exhibit a
Didnt I try again?
And did the effort pay?
Wouldnt a smarter man
Simply walk away?

It doesnt really help that you can never say
What youre looking for
But youll know it when you hear it,
Know it when you see it walk through the door
So you say--
So youve said many times before

But nothing is good enough
For people like you
Who have to have someone take the fall
And something to sabotage--
Determined to lose it all
Nothing is good enough.

PURGE OF INFO!

Sun, 01 Mar 2009 17:22:35 GMT

So much has been going on lately and it's like, I should really probably keep up with lj because it would give me peace of mind, maybe.

School: School's going awesome, even though I find myself half-assing it once again. We're at our mid-way point through the semester, and I'm getting A's in everything except Spanish (I think I have a low B or a C, it's my teacher's last semester before retiring and she's doing a pretty piss-poor job at teaching us). My teachers are pretty alright and I love, love, LOVE history (in which I have my highest grade, a 98, even though we don't go by numerical grades, it's my current one so whatevs). So yeah, w00t! I'm going to have to focus even harder coming out of Spring Break since there's so much going on. I'm applying for a summer fellowship at the University of Alabama doing genetic and pathological research. I'm so psyched and hope I get it!

Karate: I'm now a yellow belt with a green tip! I'll be taking karate at the actual karate school for six months to bump myself up to a full on green belt. I'm hoping to become a black belt by the time I graduate, but we'll see. Financially (and time wise) it might not work out how I plan, but I'm going to take this as far as I can. It's so much fun, and it makes me feel more confident!

Comedy: Speaking of confidence, I'm now officially a Trainee at Comedyworx here in Raleigh! I'll be working on performing Comedy Sports, which is kick ass and fun and I love it. some of the people are really hard to work with b/c they suck, but I've got a pretty decent group of people I actually get along with, so that's awesome! Planning a potential trip to Chicago over the summer with some of the more awesome people, which is really fucking awesome b/c I've always wanted to go to Chicago AND we had a visiting troupe from there this weekend and one of the guys was super cute so yeah, it'd be cool to see him again. It's nice to know people think I'm funny enough to be part of a collaborative effort to be funny for lots of people.

Love life: Bleh, no time. and boys have been particularly stupid lately.

Living sitch: right now living with friend Newman, and this will possibly change over the summer after I return for my Fellowship (IF I GET IT, I'M HOPING I DO). It's no offense to Newman, it's just that...I want to live with girls. It's different, living with boys, if they're related to you, your boyfriend, or gay. This is kind of awkward and I think it'd be better to live with the ladies.

Everything else: Going to the gym as much as I ca but I keep getting colds! This dreary weather also doesn't make it easy to want to go out and do things. Like this afternoon I'm going to Alex's place and she and I are going to do nothing! lol...w00t SPRING BREAK!

Oh yeah, I got a job at DSW and it really sucks and I don't want to do it but I've got to until I find something better. Holla.

I really want to move back to NY. I'm going to be honest. I'm ridiculously NYC-homesick. I just...don't...want to see my family. Same shit, different day. Sometimes I want to sell everything and move to LA, like fuck it, whatever. But then realism sinks in and I go ack about my bidness.

This too shall pass...

Fri, 13 Feb 2009 01:56:45 GMT

What's up? I fucking hate everything.

screw this crap I've had it (I'd had it)

Mon, 09 Feb 2009 15:02:24 GMT

I am sick and tired of my Religious Ethics teacher assuming I'm a fucking teenager. This morning he makes some comment to the entire class about how "I know you don't understand because for you, life has been just school then straight to college but one day when you're out in the real world, you'll understand" and I just shook my head.

For the love of god I'm almost 30. Eeew, re-reading that is depressing but you know, I'm so tired of being lumped into the "you're just a kid" group here at school. He always says shit like talking about how our parents are paying for our college and someday soon I'll be kicked out of Meredith for punching him in the face repeatedly.

HOORAY!

Fri, 30 Jan 2009 15:23:28 GMT

My spanish teacher isn't feeling well and so my Spanish class is canceled for today! i'm not happy she's sick or anything, but, since I'm also sick, all I want to do is go home and take a nap before I go to comedyworx tonight. I'm beat and I just woke up like four hours ago...blech.

I can't wait until my mind's not in perpetual fog and I sound like normal again.

Improv update part 2

Thu, 29 Jan 2009 11:47:04 GMT

Last night went alrightish. I've had a sore throat/cold for a few days now, so I was pretty sure I wouldn't have a voice but I did, so that was good. However, I was feeling self-conscious about sounding weird so I kind of opted out of a few games.

It was monolog night, and my only criticisms were that I don't make enough eye contact with my audience, so second time around, I kind of darted around from person to person. It went well.

Afterwards, a few of us stopped off for a beer and it was fun. I got to tell some stories about phone how everyone always says I should do phone sex, and we all bonded which was cool.

I left around ten b/c I had to wake up for class at 5:30 this morning, and my teacher and another girl (who's already a resident at the club) and I walked back to our cars. During the walk my teacher told me that I am hilarious, and that made me feel pretty awesome. I shant lie.

So, that's about that for now. I'm off to school here in a second! My voice keeps going in and out, which is annoying, but my throat isn't irritated much anymore, which is awesome! Thanks, Miller Highlife!

I woke up at 330 this morning and...

Tue, 27 Jan 2009 10:31:40 GMT

Drank coffee!

Did my taxes (for the most part, still waiting on student loan info from one place)!

Changed my address!

Half-cured my sore throat!

Blew my nose a lot!

Looked at Johns Hopkins!

Requested some catalogs from a few other med schools!

A night with Mavis

Fri, 23 Jan 2009 23:41:12 GMT

I'm home alone! AAAAAHHHHH! Newman's out of town and I'm kicking back, watching cartoons, and I'll probably do my math homework in a little bit whilst drinking some green apple draft cider. Aaah, awesome.

So I'm back to doing the gym thing. It's going pretty well, today was my first day off since Sunday. I'm going back again tomorrow, then I'll possibly go Sunday and take off Monday, we'll see, I'm not sure. Because I can go Sunday morning and have the rest of the day to do WHATEVER. It depends on how late I stay up playing Guitar Hero on Saturday.

I've also started improv (comedy) which is fucking awesome. I love it. I love it so much. My teacher says I'm funny but I need to speak up. Xina, I need to borrow your volume.

Other than that, things are alright. I've been cooking a lot more since I've moved, which is good, and I've got a meeting with the head of the biology department Tuesday. I've decided on a minor (have we had this talk?): Criminal Justice.

Karate again this semester, it's really awesome. I'm learning an attack form and it's so much fun!

And that about does it. I'm thinking of going to med school in Tennessee. Why? Body Farm.

I'm also thinking of UCLA. Why? Jesus why not. Eventually I'll need to get the hell out of Raleigh.

Fantastic excitement and such!

Mon, 22 Dec 2008 19:16:05 GMT

First off, I've been getting nothing but the best x-mas prezentz from my friend peeps this year. I'm a lucky girl to have such kickass friends. Gracias and such!

Second, I'm gearing up to drive to NY tomorrow morning (like, seriously, I plan on going to sleep soon so I can get up and go at like, two or three am...though maybe I should wait until 4 when all the drunk are (presumably) home.

Third, my knee is super swollen. All day yesterday I thought I just needed to pop it but I actually looked at it just now and...ew. to the max.

Fourth, omfg as much as I love Raleigh, and I really do love it, I can't wait to get the funk out of here for a week and a half and go hang with my fam and NY friend peeps. I know I was "just" there in august but yeah...that was only for like four days. This is going to be fun and awesome and I'm excited and maybe it'll snow for me.

And that's all I've got as I sip my glass of Airborne because my sister and her boyfriend are sickly and I'm almost insurance-less. Peace, btchz. Happy Christmas and such!

OMFG!

Sat, 20 Dec 2008 15:30:33 GMT

I'M GETTING IMPROV CLASSES FOR CHRISTMAS!!!

A friend of mine is part of a Comedy Sports whatchamadealie at the local comedy whatnot and he's giving me the gift of short-form improv classes for Christmas/Chanukah.

He says it's purely for selfish reasons (we're really funny together and would make a good team), but OMFG *flail hands* it's like a dream come true!

YAYZ!

You are what you eat

Wed, 17 Dec 2008 15:15:12 GMT

Two weeks ago I decided to take advantage of BC/BS of NC's "6 free trips to the nutritionist" because I figured why the hell not AND it's free and I like free.

Anyhow, we went over just how much I should be eating (as apposed to what I had been eating) and at first it looked really difficult. When you see everything laid out as to how many calories are in certain things, it blows your mind, check it:

One cup of orange juice (tropicana Calcium & vit. D): 110 calories
One medium/large orange: 35 calories.

Now I love juice, nuts and dried fruit. And according to Nutritionist, "When someone comes in looking to gain weight, I tell them to eat a lot of nuts and dried fruit and drink a lot of juice."

I didn't have to give up cheese, I've just been buying the low-fat. Everything bread/crackers/breakfast bars is high in fiber and I can still drink coffee so long as I don't really drink anything else with calories (the coffee calories are from the sugar), which I really don't anyhow. AND I've been kind of drinking a lot of booze lately on account of all the x-mas parties and such, but still, so far I've lost about 5 pounds.

Now, once I throw in the exercising, it'll come off faster. I'm just concerned that I will be hungrier since I will be burning more calories, but I know I can balance it out.

Anyhow, pip-pip and all that, I'm officially a calorie counter but I'm not like, starving. I'm just right!

Ko

Sat, 06 Dec 2008 19:04:14 GMT

Just got off the phone with my mom. Ko is going to have to be put to sleep because he has been doing very poorly. This Christmas is going to be so bizarre. He had a good run. 12 years. This is weird.

Wed, 03 Dec 2008 17:14:33 GMT

See more Jack Black videos at Funny or Die

Weather or not?

Sun, 30 Nov 2008 23:52:21 GMT

Today I've been really off, emotion-wise. I don't know, I think the fact that holy fuck I'm about to be jobless is hitting REALLY hard right now. I want my mommy. I know everything's going to be fine, but what if it isn't? Wht if everything suddenly goes really wrong and I'm fucked like royally? I hate feeling like this so much, and I'm trying not to but I can't help it. And I'm ready to push the Boy very, very far away because if you're good at something, keep with it. I want to stay home and feel sorry for myself. He called to see if I want to watch a movie. I feel like shit.

The End.

Seven more days of work...

Wed, 26 Nov 2008 15:42:23 GMT

It's so weird, this is all so weird. In seven (business) days, I'll be jobless, but it'll be ok because I'll be packing all my shit to move and looking for part-time jobs with benefits. I've added 2 classes to my course load (So I've got Math 141, Spanish 102, History 105 and Religion 104, Karate 249 and Conditioning 100-something). 14 Credits all together, summer off so I'll work more hours and then full-one semesters for fall and Spring of next year, all sciences and what not.

I am a full-time student. And while this is something that should have happened a long time ago, the timing just wasn't right. Now the time is right and I am fortunate enough to be able to do (and afford) this.

I'm going to go return my washer and dryer to Best Buy and purchase...AN iPOD! Because I've paid off a lot of the w&d and an ipod's cheaper than one anyhow and well...I have wanted one for a long time.

I've also got to pick up my new Meredith College -issued laptop, which you get for free once you become a full-time student, so I'll have my person computer (Mac) and my school computer (not Mac...it's totally all Vista-ie, but whatever, it's free). My pretty, pretty Mac can stay at home and do my free-timey stuff.

Anyhow...I've got to skidaddle over to Trader Joe's to get some snackey things for tomorrow (hummus, perhaps cheese, etc). I'm making my awesome mushroomy vegetarian Shepard's Pie and cinnamon rolls and finally my pumpkin muffins, and I hope you all have a lurvely holiday!

Today is National Survivors of Suicide Day.

Sat, 22 Nov 2008 08:33:26 GMT

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Guh

Sun, 09 Nov 2008 22:10:13 GMT

I've been especially lazy, during the hours that I'm not working and going to school. I've been putting off homework until like, riiiight before I go to bed, but I am washing clothes and deep conditioning my hair and I'm supposed to be chopping veggies but I'm not hungry and I don't feel like it.

I need a vacation and a personal assistant.

Well, I would LIKE a vacation and a personal assistant. However, I can't afford either of them so...

I went to Newman's h.s. reunion last night and it was pretty neat. It start off as like "maybe this was a bad idea! Id don't know anyone!" but then I got to talking to some people and it was fun after that. Then we stopped by his parent's house to say hello, and they're probably the cutest parents I've EVER met. So adorable! Then we stopped and ate the greatest Lo Mein I've ever had, and I have had a LOT of Lo Mein. Who knew the best Chinese place ever was in Wilksboro NC? Aside from everyone who lives in Wilksboro, anyhow.

But it was really great and I got to dress up all pretty!

Today I searched high and low for a suit (I have a job fair this week). It wasn't as easy as I thought and I didn't find anything. Everything's cut weird and makes me look like Frankenstein's monster. I'm either too short of too tall, or I'd find awesome pants but no blazer OR an awesome blazer and no pants/skirt to match. Seriously. Then I went into Steinmart and there was nothing age appropriate for me there! Everything there looked like it came out of my Great-Aunt Ann's closet! And don't get me wrong, she was a stylish lady but WOW not even a simple black suit.

I'm going to have to go to NY and co which means going to the Mall which means hoards of people and a weird headache. I hate malls. I hate Target, more, for having NOTHING that matches!

Voting was fun and all, but...

Wed, 05 Nov 2008 16:00:26 GMT

...ultimately disappointing. I mean, I'm fine with Obama. Didn't vote for him (or McCain) but I voted SO I get to complain if Obama doesn't live up to his own projected image, saying "Hey, I didn't vote for him...I was in the 1% who voted for Bob Barr, bitchezzzz". As for Bev Perdue, well...that's a fucking shame. Liddy Dole? Hahaa....where's your God now?

I don't know, voting was awesome and I had an overwhelming sense of pride in my country and joy that I was voting but I will always feel like my vote doesn't actually count.

But yay, CHERIE BERRY! Her picture gets to stay in the elevators for a few more years, right? Whooooooooot!